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To have every man but to love only one
To wake with the moon and sleep with the sun
To be a sinner, a saint, a lover, a friend
To know a beginning but never and end
To fly in the ocean and swim in the skies
Believer in truth, defendant of lies
To know the purest love, the deepest pain
To be lost and found again, and again, and again
These are the dreams of an Impossible Princess
To know the power of wealth and poverty
To taste every moment and try everything
TO be hailed a hero, branded a fool
Believe in the sacred and break evry rule
To give into pleasure with no boundaries
Living in chaos and harmony
To feel the touch of a man, a womans caress
To know the limit of torture and tenderness
These are the dreams of an Impossible Princess
It's a way of dealing with all the feeling keep believing in dreams
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Wednesday, March 10th, 2004
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| Subject: | Convo |
| Time: | 6:30 pm. |
| Mood: |  amused. | | Music: | "Forever Young"-Happy Hardcore. |
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A funny conversation between Carol and I a week or 2 ago that I just found:
Carol: How about we go on a roadtrip?
Me: With what car?
Carol: We can rent one.
Me: Well, you have to be 21 or 25 or...20 something to rent one.
Carol: I look 20 something.
Me: But your ID doesn't say that.
Carol: ...My breasts do.
She's so...imaginitive.
xomark
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From last night, and two more from a friend of mine:
*The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold
*A Bright Red Scream by Marilee Strong
*A Night In The Barracks by Alex Buchman
*Vampire Vow by Michael Schiefelbein
*Vampire Thrall by Michael Schiefelbein
*Full Body Contact by Greg Herren
*Dumped edited by B. Delores Max
*How Sex Changed by Joanne Meyerowitz
*The Secret Language of Symbols by David Fontana
*Buzzed (Some book about drugs)
Quite a few of those books are gay erotica, and others are psychology books or just...miscellaneous.
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Wednesday, February 18th, 2004
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1) First grade teacher's name: Miss Ravas.
2) Last word you said: Jazz.
3) Last song you sang: "All That Jazz" from Chicago
4) Last person you hugged: Mi madre
5) Last thing you laughed at: IMs from random people on my cell
6) Last time you said 'I love you': Earlier tonight to Carol as she was getting offline to go to bed.
7) Last time you cried: Uh? Don't remember.
8) What's in your CD player: Britney Spears' "In The Zone (Import)"
9) What colour socks are you wearing: Uhm, air?
10) What's under your bed: The floor.
12) Current taste: Peanut butter sandwich.
13) Current hair: Fucked up.
14) Current clothes: Black Unicos
16) Current longing: I want sex.
17) Current desktop picture: A niiiiice beach.
18) Current worry: Homework.
19) Current hate: Weather.
20) Story behind your Live Journal: I wanted one, so I got one...but didn't use it for the first few months I had the account cos it was too plain. Besides, I had my xanga.
21) Current favourite article of clothing: Hmm, lemme go look.
Back. My favorite article of clothing is...my tees from the Army-Navy store.
22) Favourite physical feature of the opposite sex: Uhm?
23) Last CD that you bought: I don't recall.
24) Favourite place to be: The beach. ...Or Starbucks. ...Or the library. Wait, no! Barnes & Noble. It has books & Starbucks. :D
25) Least favourite place: Uhm... home. Sometimes.
26) Time you wake up in the morning: Uh? When I have school...5:30. ...Usually a little later. If I don't have to wake up, I normally wake up around 10 or 11.
27) If you could play an instrument, what would it be: Piano.
29) Do you believe in an afterlife: Yes and no?
31) Current favourite word/saying: Indeed. (Right Carol?)
32) Favourite book: Oh...wow. Uh, I don't know. Every book?
33) Favourite season: Summer. It's when I'm darkest. And happiest.
34) One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: Eh...
35) Favourite day: Saturday. Beach during the day, fun at night. Late curfew. The whole day's free for whatever...ah, that's the life. :)
36) Where do you want to go: Far?
37) What is your career going to be like: It is what it is.
38) How many kids do you want: Zip, zilch, nada. I think?
39) What kind of car will you have: Who knows. Prolly a hoopty--as I always say.
40) Type a line you remember from any book: ...
41) A random lyric: "Open your eyes to the skies and the sun; I wonder if this day will be the one? Want you to hear my confession; you're my obsession; Do what you will do but I can't help the way I'm wantin' you..."
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Thursday, February 5th, 2004
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Friday, January 30th, 2004
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| Time: | 10:29 pm. |
| Mood: |  confused. | | Music: | "Pull Up"-Mr. Vegas. |
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I was gonna update earlier, when things were still semi-fresh in my head, but then I took a nap and now I'm not recalling things quite as easily...so bare with me.
Yesterday, I stayed after school for literary club (not literary magazine--something totally different) and ended up taking BCt to get to the Imperial Point Branch library. While I was there, I talked to Kevin on my cell and he was talking about how he was trying to leave work early and shit and his managers weren't having it, but he was gonna try again. He said something that pissed me off as well, but I won't go into details. Sorry folksies, no quoting. :) Anyway...after I left the plaza where the library is, I took the bus home. Kevin picked me up at the Shell on 14th a lil' after that. We went to Starbucks, Boca Town Center and then drove around a bit more before he took me home. By the way: I was hanging out instead of doing my massive amounts of homework because I didn't have my keys. Yes, I was locked out. Woe is me.
So having left my keys, I got home around 9:30ish and stood outside for roughly 2 hours 'til my mom got home. I got inside and immediately got on the phone with Carol while I ate, since I was starving. I was on the phone with Carol 'til about 12:20 and then got off and started working on my notes. I stayed up until 4 in the morning copying page after page of notes and never did finish up the work. So on top of the couple of assignments I failed to finish from Thursday night's homework...I have things piling up that were assigned tonight as homework that's due Monday as well. Joy to the world.
To elaborate on last night: I was trying to copy the 6 pages of World History notes I'd missed earlier in the week into a spiral and listening to Power 96 waiting for my song to come on (eventually I gave in and requested it) and in between pages, I'd take a break to rest my hand. Needless to say, I wasn't concentrating as much as I should have been on my work. I was also thinking about situations at hand in my life right now. Social ones, I mean. So I was thinking about Jerry and shit like that. So basically...I came to a bit of a realization: he's told me it's not going to get serious, and with his reasoning (he's leaving soon for bootcamp) I can't fault him or be upset with him. It does bother me that a friend of mine is still trying to get me to hook something up, and it made me a lil' jealous when Jerry was telling me about this guy he'd talked to, but I told myself last night that I just had to let that shit go. We can be friends--and we are--and that's that. Whatever happens on the side happens. But I can't sit here and be all head over heals over him, ya know? It's for the best. And atleast this time, I made myself see that. Maybe I should mediate myself about some other guys as well?
Back to the update: I packed everything up and turned everything off around 3:45, brushed my teeth and washed my face and went and laid in bed, staring at the clock, 'til 4ish when I passed out. I dragged ass this morning to get ready and get out of the house and I surprisingly caught the bus. I pushed myself to stay awake in both World History and Comp Law, but since we had a substitute in Psychology, I took a nap. I talked with Casey during lunch about the night before and other things that have been bothering me, and then I went to Civics and fell asleep halfway through the class since all he did was lecture. I got home at 4 (we rode with 5031 again) and passed out on the couch almost immediately. I woke up at 6:30, stayed up 'til 7, and woke up again somewhere between 9:30 and 10.
It started raining today. There's this huge storm system moving in and it's not looking like this weekend is going to be very fun at the beach. I still gotta go though...to catch up with Steven and stuff. I hope my voice is better tomorrow cos I have a lot to tell him.
I've been reading Rainbow Boys by Alex Sanchez since about Tuesday and I'm almost done with it. I should be finishing it up tonight. I should be starting Whatever Happened to Dulce Veiga? tomorrow.
Going to be, once again, doing something quite shameful this weekend. Anyone who's been told about this definitely knows what I'm talking about...there's no need for me to go into any specifics. Talk about deep, dark secrets though. =\
I'm gonna go make a few calls and get to work on my homework. Later ya'll.
xomark
Oh, and PS...I've changed my mind [obviously]. Fuck Friends Only. I'll just do that for selected entries. It's too much work and stuff to have to go and switch alllllllll my old entries to FO entries. Yessum, I'ma lazy bitch. Fuck you.
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Tuesday, January 27th, 2004
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| Time: | 11:44 pm. |
| Mood: |  contemplative. | | Music: | "Boy On The Dancefloor"-Lisa Scott Lee. |
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This is a final [public] entry. If you actually do read this piece of shit but don't have a livejournal, or haven't added me yet...I suggest you comment on my next entry [or this one] and get to it.
Onto the update:
Jerry picked me up from school today cos we had somethin' important to do, but apparently it's gonna have to wait. Possibly 'til next week. We'll see, I guess. For those of you I've told, don't worry 'bout it.
And as for school: my mom and I left the house today at 6:45ish...I realized I didn't have the certificate stating I'd completed my traffic course, so I couldn't get my restricts today. Mervin had to be to work, so we drove out to Sawgrass, then my mom drove me to school and I walked around the hallways for the remainder of 1st block. I had to go to the office to get my schedule cos Coach Shamish wasn't in the classroom to give me mine and found out that my 2nd block is right next door to Coach Shamish's room. So both 1st and 2nd blocks are downstairs in the main building in the middle hallway. Psychology is upstairs in the first hallway--the one closest to the patio...and 4th is in a portable which is part of the semicircle that surround the bus loop. Comprehensive Law went relatively well, aside from the fact that I didn't know what the hell half of the goddamn court/law/trial terms they were using were. Psychology went by pretty fast--I have C lunch now. And Civics was the only class that seemed long and drawn out. I think I have SSRW in every single class on Tuesdays. Oh Jesus. With my new schedule, I have to go to my locker first thing in the morning and get things for World History and Comprehensive Law. Then I'll go upstairs and get my shit for Psychology. Afterwards, I'll get my things together. Whatever I need for homework in my other classes and whatever I need for Civics will go with me to lunch. Anything I take with me for Civics will be going home with me everyday because I can't run from a portable, back to the main building, and back out to the buses and expect to get there and catch my bus. Oh well. With these new classes, the day seems to go by much quicker. Could be the fact that I have 3rd block straight through and then lunch. Who knows. We'll see if I still feel as if the day is going by quick when I have to sit through one more class tomorrow. I heard Shamish makes you take notes upon notes upon notes. Joy.
So did I mention that AJ and Jerry know each other? If I didn't, I should have. There was drama tonight--none of which I'll be getting into in this entry though.
Also, I felt the need to ask Jerry the question he asked me earlier last week--about the issue of seriousness between us. He said last week that he wasn't particularly looking for an attachment since he's leaving for bootcamp soon and such. So I'm like, hey whatever. Friendship is good enough for me. He's a cool guy and all, so it's not a total loss, ya know? *raises eyebrows* So we talked about it again tonight, he said basically the same thing, and that having been said...I just told him that I want him to lemme know if I'm crossing any lines or anything of that nature, ya know? Eh, as I said before...c'est la vie.
I started reading Rainbow Boys by Alex Sanchez today. I'm on page 55 right now and have got to keep myself from reading anymore tonight because I have shit to do. Speaking of which...I should probably do another list since I'm thinking about "to-dos":
-Comprehensive Law homework
*Read over 3 cases and write arguments for each side of each case
-Civics homework
*Get syllabus signed
*Write response essay for SSRW--writing prompt #1
*Get 1 1/2" binder for class; 8 tab dividers
-Buy a new agenda book (with these new classes, I'm definitely gonna need it)
-Read over Florida traffic law book to be prepared for Learner's License test
-Clean my room
-Clean up the goddamned house
There's more, but I'm lazy. I have to get to my homework, afterall.
More tomorrow. A brand new look and allll that shit. :D
xomark
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Monday, January 26th, 2004
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Ok, quick update!
I totally forgot about my appointment tomorrow morning to get my permit. We're leaving the house at 6am. Joy.
My mom did not get a rental car, so Mervin is our transportation tomorrow morning and she's gonna have to find a ride home from work. =\ Ugh, money problems are stupid. Money sucks.
Jerry's picking me up from school tomorrow. :giggles: lol =) We've got somethin' important to do, and I'm not sure if we're gonna hang out more afterwards or not. Guess we'll see. He's starting to get sick from me. =\ Oops... I feel bad! :(
I'm in the process of changing my livejournal around, so gimme a break while it's lookin' kinda fawked up. It should be back in order tomorrow.
Hm, what else? Er...oh hell, I don't know.
l8er ya'll.
xomark
PSMy mood is 'hot' because my air conditioner is on the fritz. Again.
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| Time: | 5:32 pm. |
| Mood: |  aggravated. | | Music: | "If I Were You"-Candee Jay. |
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I didn't go to school today cos I wasn't even feeling well enough to get out of my bed this morning. I managed to stumble into mama's room and grab the box of tissues and stumble back to my bed with them, blow my nose, and pass back out. She walked into my room as I laid back down and said I should go back to sleep and she'd call in my absence. I was pissed cos I missed the first day of new classes, but at the same time, I was happy.
Kevin came and picked me up around 1:30, we went to the Verizon store and then chilled at Pompano Beach for a lil' bit. On the way back to my house, we got stopped by a red light and we were right next to a bus stop. There was a guy with a ratty mullet and a woman sitting on the bench at the stop. The guy was rambling (Kevin pointed out his lack of teeth) and she was nodding and plucking hairs from her chin. He pulled a brush out and attempted to brush his hair and she licked her mirror to clean it off. :gag: Gotta love South Florida, eh?
The rest of my day's been boring. I've been online for a majority of it. My mom's car broke down...something about the alternator. ...Whatever that is. So we're gonna be using a rental car for about the next week or so.
I caught up with Xtina today and talked to Carol for a bit as well. I'm also catching up with people online (friends from Ohio, mainly). I kept saying I was gonna clean my room but...no. Oh, but I did find the $130 I misplaced earlier last week. Yay!! :)
And finally: if a friend of yours started showing interest in the guy you like, what would you do? There's more to the situation but eh.
Later ya'll!
xomark
PSI'm starting to grow my hair out. We'll see how long this lasts. Anyone have any ideas as to how to make my hair grow faster?
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Sunday, January 25th, 2004
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| Time: | 7:02 pm. |
| Mood: |  satisfied. | | Music: | "All Over Me"-Becky Baeling. |
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Let's see...where shall I start?
Most recently:
I was over at Mandi's and all the neighbors are out tonight just chillin', and Chris, his wife, and his son (and newborn) are over as well...and his son, Christopher, was inside and when Chris walked in Christopher said something that I didn't hear quite well, but I could make out, "that Chinese kid." :shrug: This totally reminds me of the ignorance of elementary kids. Whatev. I'm in high school now and it's the same--only the stubborness of those children I was stuck with in elementary has escalated as they grew older. No matter. I don't give a fuck.
Now I've gotta backtrack to yesterday. Early yesterday. I got up at 8am and went to this traffic school on Sample Rd. to take my 4-hour class that's required for me to get my restricts. It actually wasn't that bad. I got outta there around 1pm and went home and got online while I got my shit together to go to the beach. Jerry was online and we spoke...he said he was going to get his haircut and I said something about wanting to hang out, but wanting to go to the beach...asked him if he'd pick me up from the beach. Don't quite recall the exact conversation; does it matter? I do, however, remember him saying something about getting his haircut and then going home to shower and then coming to pick me up. I said something like, "Why don't you just pick me up right after your haircut?" and he said something like, "So what, are we gonna shower together?" to which I responded "Maybe." cos ya'll know I'm such an angel. O:) So I got my shit together and headed for the beach. Kevin called after I'd been there for a few hours and came and hung out for a few minutes. Then Jerry came and I did the little introduction BS and started getting ready to leave. Kevin offered rides home to both Kory and Alex and as we all entered the parking lot, I kind of just ignored Kevin, Alex, and Kory and walked along with Jerry to his car.
So on the way to his house, I was thinking about whether or not he was actually serious about the shower thing...and I had plenty of time to since he had the music blaring and we weren't really talking that much. When we got there, he started a load of laundry and jumped in the shower. A few minutes later, I hear, "MARK!!" from the bathroom and pop my head in the door.
-"Yes?"
"Aren't you taking a shower?"
-"Yeah."
"Well...?"
So I go and get undressed and jump in the shower with him. I'll skip the 'juicy' details. They're gonna be posted elsewhere. Ya'll'll just have to ask. Ha. I will say this, though: he is an awesome kisser (among many other things...heh)
So we left his house around 8ish and he took me to Sawgrass cos I was supposed to meet up with Natalie, but she and Keke stood me up. So I was at Sawgrass for 2 1/2 hours with NOTHING to do and ended up joyriding around the parking lot in my mom's car (she said I was allowed though, lol)...we stopped at WalMart on the way home cos she had to get something and I talked to Kevin while I was walking around in there and he said he'd gone to a party earlier in the night and it totally sucked, but he was totally in the mood to hang out last night, and wondered if I was able to do something. So I asked me mom when we stopped for gas, and she was cool with it. So we got home around 11:15 and Kevin showed up less than 10 minutes later.
We didn't really find anything to do, but we did a lot of catching up since we hadn't hung out or even really talked in weeks. I raved on and on about Jerry and just made him deal with listening to the lil' details (poor him) and I did all of this with a voice that just kept cracking and fading in and out (oh, forgot to mention-I'm hella sick). We ended up going to Dunkin' Donuts and he enlightened me on something, but I can't say shit soo...eh. I got home around 2:30, fell asleep around 3:45, and woke up this morning at 7:30 and then woke back up at 8:45.
I got to the beach around 1 or something like that. I called Fernanda, and she and Tecia rollerbladed to the beach. Rose was supposed to come as well, but she never called me. I thought I lost my cell phone (I left it in Kory's pocket though) but I did lose 3 CDs. Chris (Robbie's boifriend) stole them, I'm assuming. Fucker. I do intend to get them back though. As soon as I get my voice back, that is.
Anyway...I'm really drawing a blank as to anything else that's happened over the past 2 days. If I think of anything else, I'll be sure to edit though. :)
Later ya'll.
xomark
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Saturday, January 24th, 2004
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So I'm definitely going to Brasil for Spring Break. And I'm definitely happy about that. :) For anyone that's curious...I'm going to Fortaleza.
In other news: an update on other situations...
I think I passed my English exam. It was 30 questions on Shakespeare's Julius Caesar. 15 multiple choice questions, 15 essay questions. Which was, as you can imagine, pretty easy. I omitted 4 essay questions cos I simply didn't know the answer and wasn't about to just dream something up, write it down, and look like a fool. So I most likely passed my English exam. My Biology exam wasn't that bad either. I omitted 7 essay questions...but it was a hella long test, so I don't think it'll count against me too awfully much. My Geometry exam, on the other hand, was not as easy. She even put shit on there I don't ever recall her ever having taught us. Like included angles. What the fuck are those? Eh. My exam in Business Systems & Tech was easy...but I didn't study the review of Microsoft Access, so I probably bombed that part of it. So I'm looking at grade card similar to this (hopefully; as these are only my grades in the class...which could drop drastically with some of these exam scores...):
Business Systems & Tech: B
English 2: C+
Geometry Honors: B+
Biology Honors: B
Looks so horrible compared to last term. :sigh: I hope my GPA doesn't drop too much on account of my slacking. If ya'll recall, it was a 2.625 at the end of last year and after much hard work during the first quarter, I managed to bring it up to a 3.175. We'll see, I guess. I can't slack anymore! Scholarships, scholarships, SCHOLARSHIPS!
My new schedule, starting Monday, looks like this:
World History Honors-Block 1
Comprehensive Law-Block 2
Psychology 1-Block 3
Civics-Block 4
I don't know which lunch period I have yet but I better have it with lots of my friends. Otherwise, I will be pissed.
I talked to Brandon tonight. I saw him at Broward Mall at the end of December on New Year's Eve, actually. I've been looking at his number in my phone for quite some time now like, "Brandon? Who the...?" and today it clicked. So I called him and we caught up on stuff. He seems to be doing quite well. Erm...I gotta call him back tomorrow cos my mom started yelling at me for me to get off of the phone. Bitch.
Oh, and about Jerry: he came over Tuesday (I also got my right hand smashed between 2 doors on Tuesday, btw) and we chilled for about 3 or 4 hours. And for all of you that are under the impression that I'm a huge slut (cos so far, that's all I really have been...)...we did nothing but make out. Briefly. Oh, and I gave him a backrub. :) He made it clear later that night when we spoke that he's not looking for anything really serious or anything since he's leaving for bootcamp soon, but since he didn't really rule it out...I've still got my hopes up. Not too high, though. Whatever happens; c'est la vie, eh?
I have my 4 hour traffic law & drug abuse course tomorrow--which I have to have, according to Florida Law, in order to get my "Learner's License". :shrug: So I'm getting up at 8am to sit in another class--on a Saturday--with a bunch of dumbfounded idiots to learn the "laws of the road". Yippee. And FYI: I'm getting my permit on Tuesday morning. Stay off of the road anytime after the afternoon of Tuesday, January 27, 2004. It's for your own good. :-D
I've been debating back and forth whether or not I'm going to cut my hair. I want it to just magically become shoulder length overnight or something. >_< I was gonna get it cut Thursday after school and the barber was closed. Then I was going to go and get it cut today but didn't get home 'til 8. And tomorrow, I'll get home from the traffic school around 1:30 or 2 and then run to catch the bus to go to the beach. Maybe...Sunday? Or maybe not. AH!
I've cleaned 2 [vacant] apartments in my complex so far. Which means I've earned $60. I'm going to give $15 or $20 to Cassandra (new neighbor girl who helped me clean those apartments), which means I've got about $40 left. I should be getting $100 or so on top of that...so I'm figuring with $140 plus the $130 I misplaced in my room (and will hopefully find in the days to come), I've got about $270 saved up for Brasil. Dizzam, that was quick. But then I'll probably ask my mom for about $20 or $30 of it for my pocket (day-to-day expenses and such), so we're dealing with $240-$250ish. No matter. I have 2 months to go. hehehe!
And enough with future plans proposed ideas and the past events of this week...today I cleaned #7 in my building and then left for the beach. I got there around 2:15 and left around 4:30ish. Went and ate lunch/dinner at Cheeburger Cheeburger and Amanda left work early, so she offered to give me a ride home. We stopped in Vogue Italia (just opened at Beachplace...YAY!!) and Express. I played fashion consultant in Express and she got some new clothes cos they're still having their Winter Clearance sale...heh. I got home around 8ish and fell asleep watching the clock...waiting for 9 o'clock to come around so I could call Jerry and see if he wanted to hang out. I woke up at 10:30 and called him--got no answer. I also called Carol, she was on the phone with Felipe and said she'd call me back. So then I called Brandon and we talked for 2 hours. The end.
My brain is no longer functioning the process of events for the last week, so I can't update any further. Later ya'll.
xomark
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Tuesday, January 20th, 2004
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saturday, i went to the beach...after chris had gone to work, alex and i headed for the terminal because he had to work. so we get there and he'd just missed a bus...he calls in to say he's gonna be late and they tell him they'll just see him tomorrow. carol calls and wants to go to the movies and we try figuring something out and alex ends up going home and i went and got on the 60 and took it to cypress creek rd. y andrews ave. she tells me the movie won't be starting for another 2 hours, so i start walking to a bus stop in hopes of taking the bus to her house and then going with her and kamila to the theater. ha. i walked from andrews to powerline and then 17 more blocks west of powerline. it baaasically sucked. i started walking back around 8:45 and hunter called and was like, "where are you? i'll pick you up." and he picked me up at powerline...which was helpful, but kind of pointless since i was ALMOST back to andrews anyways. we (carol, hunter, kamila, and i) saw along came polly and hunter took me home afterwards.
sunday, i went to the beach. it sucked. ended up going back to steven's around 2ish. we watched tv for a while and then passed out and he woke me up around 5:20 and asked what time i had to catch the bus and at the same time, jerry imed me so i asked him if he wanted to hang out and he came and picked me up. we went to starbuck's, got coffee (tea, in his case) and talked for a while and then he was like, "let's get outta here" and we ended up at the park across from my house--the 5 mile course--and we walked the whole damn thing. my mom called when we were at like, 4 3/4 miles and was like, "WHERE ARE YOU?" (lol) so i said i'd be home around 9:45. we got back to the car, rest our legs for a couple of minutes, and then we went to wendy's (cos that's all he'll eat...lol) and then he took me back home. i consciously avoided giving him a hug/kiss on the cheek as i got out of the car cos i didn't know how that'd fly with him or whatever...
then yesterday, i woke up and cleaned the apartment at the next building. did some stuff there, and finally left for the beach at 3pm! >_< so i got there around 3:45, chris left for work soon after, and alex and i left around 5:30ish. we stopped at beachplace to see chris and then caught the 40. he was late for work. again. and i took the 11 (westbound) to go see jerry. we walked around, stopped in the army navy store and ended up going to wendy's and then walmart lol...and daaamn! that boi has soo many stories!! haha.. so we walked back to his house, he drove off in his car all stealth like and drove me home. this time, i didn't hold back and just gave him a quick kiss on the cheek and he kinda looked at me with a small smile on his face. i looked at him like, "what?" and he didn't really say anything...i was like, "later." and got outta the car, shut the door and started walking up to the building. then i hear snapping. i turn around and boi's got his hand outta his window and he's snapping hella loud. i turn around, set my bag down, and walk up to his car and i'm like, "yes?" and he looks up at me, grins, and then messes around with his radio and goes, "i'm out" and leaves. i thought about it on my way upstairs and it just kinda confused me. but i was still all smiles. :) he later explained that he wanted to kiss me when he'd called me back over, but he got nervous and was buggin' cos he didn't know how i'd react to it or somethin'. aw. =) damnit!!
i gotta get my shit together for school though, so l8er ya'll!!
xomark
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Tuesday, January 13th, 2004
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| Time: | 6:06 pm. |
| Mood: |  blah. | | Music: | "fighter (hani remix)"-xtina aguilera. |
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yesterday at the end of second block, mrs. saleem said that she was going to give me a chance to explain myself before she had to explain my situation to my mom... which prompted me to get my goddamned act together. so for the past 2 days, i've been reading my book every chance i get and totally focusing on my schoolwork. well, sort of. tonight on my list of things to do (that most likely won't get done):
-geometry homework (32 problems)
-geometry project work
*call contractor
*call and get information on mortgage
-biology project (make powerpoint--presenting tomorrow)
-read the hot zone and do the AR quiz for it tomorrow morning--along with the of mice and men AR quiz
-apply at mcdonald's (ew)
-pick up the yard and take out the trash for the laundry rooms
i've done the yard and i will definitely be applying at mcdonald's tonight...i'm in the process of doing my biology work, i'm half done with the geometry work--atleast for the project, and i'm reading the hot zone every chance i get.
in other news:
erica's got a cell phone now, so we'll prolly be hangin' out a lot more often.
carol called me today to tell me that she and kamila are going to brasil for spring break, kamila's taking crystal, and she wants to take me...so i've gotta come up with roughly $600 by the end of march and hopefully harold will match whatever i raise. saving for this means: cutting down on my shopping (actually, my spending--period.) and sweet talking my parentals.
i think that's about it for now...atleast it is if i plan on getting any of that goddamned powerpoint done tonight!
l8er ya'll!
xomark
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Monday, January 12th, 2004
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| Time: | 9:02 am. |
| Mood: |  tired. | | Music: | "suga suga"-baby beesh f/frankie j. |
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the later part of saturday:
alex and chris got their cellys and were texting me and alex sent me a text saying they were at mcdonald's, so i walked over there and sat there with them while they finished up eating and messed around with their cell phones and then we went to the library so we could use the computers. afterwards, we walked to kinko's, and then pride factory. after we left pride factory, we walked to starbucks and alex bought 2 boardgames there. when we left starbucks, it was getting a little too late for alex to just be "hanging out"--he had to get home to get ready for work, but he wanted me to stay over so i could play the games with them, so i said i'd ask my mom and call them and let them know.
on my way home, i called my mom and asked her if i could go and she said as long as the dishes were done. so when i got home, i did the dishes, packed my shit, and went to the bus stop. i ended up getting picked up from the terminal by alex cos the buses had stopped running. so we went to drop sarah off, then we went back to his house so he could get his shit together and then we were gonna walk to shawn's...but chris called and texted and apparently they'd got nicki to drive them over so she gave us a ride. she called one of our cell phones and i answered and she's like, "do you know who this is?" and i responded: "nicki." and her response was, "this is the woman of your dreams...i come complete with strap-ons--" and i just busted up laughing and then she asked to speak with alex. so she talked to him, we packed up his bag, and then went outside and got in the car. we jammed, chilled, and whatev for a while, and chris cooked some sloppy joes (which were so good) and we finally busted out the games--hear me out and cranium hoopla. they were both soo fun!! :) alex and i are gonna go on a boardgame-buying spree now...haha
desiree stopped back over around 1 and lana and her friend (i always forget her name) stopped by soon after. both des and lana joined in with hoopla and we finished up 2 rounds. when we were done with the games, alex and i played britney's dance beat on ps2 and then we all fell asleep around 5am. i woke up at 2:45 in the afternoon as chris was leaving for work and alex, shawn, and i started getting ready around 3:30 to go downtown. we got to the library at 4:30 (thanks to des) and checked on computers (all of which were full) and then went to mcdonald's. we got something to eat, sat down, and weren't talking very much, and then we started joking around and i started taking things personally...but whatev. i calmed down before i started getting too bitchy. i got home around 7 and was lazy the rest of the night and, of course, didn't finish my book...even though i kept telling myself i would. hahaha
l8er ya'll!
xomark
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Saturday, January 10th, 2004
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| Time: | 1:42 pm. |
| Mood: |  happy. | | Music: | "love profusion"-madonna. |
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this week:
saw larry on thursday. hmph. still have $200 on the way.
i skipped school on friday--under my mom's consent, however. picked up the yard, went to the beach, then went shopping--i got 2 new lip balms and 2 body sprays from bath and body works, 2 diesel shirts from burdines, a black/grey baseball tee from the gap, GQ mag, and my britney calendar. i think i got more, but i can't really recall.
i was late getting to the library today...an hour late. nicole, alex(andra), allison, and i only fucked around anyway. didn't get much work done. i've got to make calls early next week to find out how much it would cost to build the house, how much the mortgage will cost, and all that other shit. presentation's on wednesday.
alex and chris got their cellys today too...which is gonna make it so much easier to get a hold of the both of them. :) now we just need to get them both CARS! haha
anyway, i'm gonna go...we're prolly gonna go to las olas before chris has to go to work. l8er ya'll!
xomark
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Wednesday, January 7th, 2004
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| Time: | 8:56 pm. |
| Mood: | aggravated. | | Music: | "spiderwebs"-no doubt. |
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procrastination is ruining me!
i haven't been updating, i'm getting behind in school...ALL BECAUSE OF PROCRASTINATING!
alex got stung by a portuguese man o' war on sunday. poor him =\
lotsa other shit has happened since then, but i'm a lazy fuck...so that's gonna have to be about it for this update--other than informing ya'll that i am, indeed, still alive.
xomark
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Wednesday, December 31st, 2003
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| Time: | 10:17 pm. |
| Mood: |  hyper. | | Music: | "send me an angel"-real life. |
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erm, i really need to start updating before the events get wayyy beyond me and i can't recall half of the previous day let alone the full events of the past week.
yesterday, i woke up at like, 10:30 and went to the beach. scanned the crowded beach for steven, found him, and we talked for a while. steven's friend josh showed up and we got him to change into a speedo. called shawn and he said that alex was on his way and chris was at work. about 20 minutes later, alex shows up with spencer. we stay until the sun starts to set and then steven bids us farewell, heads home, and alex, spencer, and i walk to beachplace. we went and badgered chris at work and alex was saying he needed to get going cos he had to work, but spencer and i insisted he should just call in. (he ended up not going in aaanyway) we took the 11 and stopped in audace--where i got a new pair of [red] unicos. erm...then we walked up to broward blvd, where j miles was CLOSED. >_< next stop: starbucks. next: library. next: las olas. next: mcdonald's. next: bct central terminal. we parted ways around 9 something and then john started iming me on my way home. i imed him throughout the night and i was up all night on the phone, online, watching tv, cleaning my room, and shit 'til like, 6:15 this morning when i passed out.
my mom woke me up this morning at 8:50 and said if i wanted a ride to the mall, i had to be ready to leave the house at 10am. so i got ready and she took me to broward mall. i got there around 11, called john, and waited for him 'til 1 when he finally showed up with his friend jashiree (i think that's how it's spelled). i called/imed xtina in between my wanderings and such and her mom was bein' total bitch all day...bleh. john, jashiree, and i walked allllllll over that goddamn mall. i got a jersey knit long sleeved tee from american eagle and my white belt with 2 rows of pyramids from cruisin & co. (alex--i finally went!) and one of the chiks in there was askin' us 8 million + 1 Qs, but she was cute so it was alright. the salespeople there are experts in pressuring. so yeah, anyway. the mall closed at...6? yeah, 6. we were outside waiting for the bus--john and jashiree were trippin' cos they thought they'd missed their bus, and they heard someone call my name and it turned out to be brandon! so we talked for a minute or 2, exchanged numbers (again) and he had to go cos his bus came. john and jashiree's bus came soon after, and i was alone for about an hour and a half waiting for my mom to come pick my dumbass up...so in the meantime, i ran up the minutes on my phone. :D umm, i got home around...well, i don't know what time, but xtina picked me up and we went to walgreen's and got alcohol and now i'm sitting at eric & christina's new house (which is awesome) and listening to....i think DnB? n*e way...i'm gonna go. this damn drink is starting to kick in and i've gotta establish who all i'm gonna call at midnight...well, i've gotta try to remember that 'list'...haha
l8er ya'll
xomark
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Sunday, December 28th, 2003
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| Time: | 1:45 am. |
| Mood: | amused. | | Music: | "i'm in heaven"-jason nevins f/holly. |
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convo from last (friday) night...i should head a nudist revolution. i can see alex and i and our dumb cherub asses running around with picketing signs...hahaha
Me (11:48:54 PM): Cos that's about it. I'm just sitting here like the lazy bitch I am. Only...half naked and kinda cold.
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) fiiish (11:49:02 PM): haha
fiiish (11:49:05 PM): then put clothes on
Me (11:49:13 PM): Nevah!
fiiish (11:49:18 PM): HAHA
Me (11:49:23 PM): It sucks cos I shiver a lil' extra when I laugh. haha
Me (11:49:33 PM): I'll be the first nudist revolutionary.
fiiish (11:49:43 PM): haha
Me (11:49:47 PM): Walking around burning clothes.
Me (11:49:56 PM): I can see it now.
fiiish (11:50:06 PM): lol that'd be something to remember
Me (11:51:15 PM): Me and my naked self goin' down in history. Open up the encylcopedia, kiddies, and you'll see me in my younger years. Things don't look nearly as good as that anymore...no, sir.
[x]EDIT @ 4:58am on 12/28/03:
convo from christmas morning between nikki and i:
Me (12:12:11 AM): And now that it's past Midnight, Merry Christmas.
Nikki (12:12:24 AM): haha YOU TOO!
Me (12:15:50 AM): Ah, what a way to spend Christmas. Downloading porn.
Nikki (12:15:58 AM): hahaha
Nikki (12:16:00 AM): rock on
Me (12:16:38 AM): Woo! Merry Christmas to me! :-D
Nikki (12:16:58 AM): hahaha
Nikki (12:17:09 AM): hmm i wonder if youre on santas naughty or nice list?
Me (12:17:44 AM): Ha, fuck that. I'm the TITLE on the naughty list.
Nikki (12:18:20 AM): omg hahaha
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Saturday, December 27th, 2003
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| Time: | 8:01 pm. |
| Mood: |  pissed off. | | Music: | "everybody doesn't"-amanda. |
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i'm packing my shit tonight. i'm sick of waiting around for friends who apparently don't give a fuck. i was gonna stay 2 days longer just to sit around at harold's and freeze my fuckin' ass off. i'm sending all the songs i've downloaded--and all the porn--to my e-mail address and i'ma dl it when i get back home (cos he doesn't have a cd burner)...i should be home monday night as opposed to tuesday night. now i've gotta:
1) do a couple of loads of laundry
2) e-mail all that shit and delete it
3) do all the updating i need to on my lj
4) research some stuff and have it ready so i've got shit to read on the bus (aside from lord jim--which i have to finish SOON so i can do the novel work for it, which is due the day i get back)
5) pack my bags
6) do the dishes
7) take the trash out
8) vacuum the living room floor and my bedroom floor
aside from me being pissed about my 'friends' making me waste my time, i've been thinking about clothes i wanna buy/make:
-i need to buy some red unicos from the boutique on broward blvd
-stencil "i want more than you've got" on a tee
-get a black tee and stencil a bunch of random words (or some lyrics--what song!?) in copper/orange/or both paints
-get a black tee and stencil marilyn monroe on it in pink paint
-take in the sides on my ARMY tee and make it a muscle tee
-i want bootcut jeans from AE...they were $24.50 on the site
-i gotta make that beater bag for sarah
-i have to buy my army backpack from hot topic asap
gonna go get to work on getting prepared to leave. oh, and i gotta call dad to tell him he's gotta take me to the bus station in the morning.
xomark
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bored.
hot.
nerdy.
giddy.